This weekend I feel like I'm really appreciating friendships. Sometimes being out on the East Coast feels like being on the moon. I just feel so disconnected from people, when all I want is for the people I care most about to still be close with me. But distance is hard. And I feel like too often, distance becomes the excuse for giving up on people and letting them drift to the wayside. When it takes a little bit of effort people usually just let it go - "Well we arent tight because you live far away and we dont see each other." But the thing I've come to learn is that you stay close to who you want to be close with. Being physically far apart doesnt determine how close you are with someone - and it comes down to deciding that you want to make an effort for someone. But this weekend was wonderful. I was reminded again about the sacrifices my friends make to be my friend. They take time out of their lives, and give it to me. There is nothing that I appreciate more - someone thinking that spending their time with me is time well spent. They have lives and other people who they're friends with and other things they could be doing, and I know its a sacrifice to share their precious time with me, especially since the phrase "out of sight, out of mind", can sometimes be too true. Too often I feel like people write me off because I'm too much of a hassle. I'm difficult, I live far away, I'm nothing they couldnt find a replacement for. Their effort is a sacrifice I dont take lightly. I see it for the gift of love that it really is.
Bonnie and Cathy combined this weekend talked to me for five hours. And I love them dearly for letting me feel a part of their lives still. People I can talk about anything with and depend on completely. It just left me feeling completely joyful. I love them both so much. Because I've had a lot of different friends, who were more than willing to let our friendship slip to the wayside. It just wasnt important to them. The point is, if you dont make an effort to stay close to people, you wont be. Its a simple as that.
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